Everything was happened in the blink of the eye. Yonaka gasped. With wide open eyes, she was getting on her feet and stepped back, absolutely shocked.
No, oh no…
Her hands began shaking. She felt blood – fresh, other than the bloody mass in the room. It also covered her hands. Seems to be everywhere.
Not again, thought Yonaka in disbelief.
She remembered well her feelings, while she tightly hugged Defect Mogeko, who bleed out in her arms. That memories were fresh and clear, playing over and over again in her mind. Yonaka felt familiar helplessness and groaned. What has she done? Once again, she didn’t know what to do. That hurt more than she expected.
However, this time was different. When Defect Mogeko died, she couldn’t do anything. She hated herself for that, but still… Part of Yonaka know, that was an only way. Defect seemed to know this too. She couldn’t protect herself, not to mention him.
Ah, why she didn't to be able to protect those, who she loved?!
But this time… was much worse.
This time she was a murderer. She…
"Ah… Why? Why?"
Yonaka stepped back. Again and again. She almost tripped, but regained balance in time. Shaking her head, she was looking on the motionless body lied on the floor. She whispered that one question over and over again, still didn’t understand.
Why…?
But there was no answer. Only dead silence, seemed to be louder than scream. Even the air was different, heavy and supersaturated with the smell of blood. That made her felt sick.
Yonaka hugged herself tightly. She was shaking, quietly sobbing. Tears makes everything blurred, but she still was able to seen Shinya. He didn't move an inch, just lied in a pool of his own blood. His face looked pale, almost ghostly. If not his dead, staring eyes, Yonaka could be pretend he was sleeping. She was fooled herself that way for a while, when she cuddled him to her chest, but she couldn’t be doing this forever. Dead silence and her own thoughts forced her to face the truth.
Still… She wasn't ready for that.
"Brother… Why?", she asked once more.
She knew he won’t answer, but didn’t care. There she was – lost, scared, left with… nothing. She still breathed, of course, but… Was that mean something? Yonaka was realised that everything was pointless from the beginning. To be honest, maybe she knew that back then, while she took train to home. Did she really want to come here? Or maybe…
Was that goal of Mogeko's world? She found herself on that cursed castle, because deep down her soul she was too scared to die from her brother hands? Of course, she knew he planned to kill her. Long ago, Yonaka realised that his mind was broken. She wanted to believe that’s not true, but… she didn’t. She only delayed things, which meant to be happened anyway. And then… she didn't want to be a victim. She couldn't, but…
Why you didn't dodge?
If he only answered that one question… If she only could talk with her brother for a one last time – with the real one, not the monster in Shinya’s skin. What would he tell her? Would he be mad? Or maybe he would felt relief? If only...
But her brother was gone, left long ago. Yonaka just destroyed the only chance he could ever come back, even for a sec. He was dead before he could answer any questions. He left her and… took part of her with him.
Yeah, that's right. Something changed.
Yonaka looked at her bloody hands. She clutched her fists, then stretched her fingers. Her body still trembled, but that didn't matter anymore. She didn't felt anything, just emptiness, but that was fine… somehow. Much better than the sharp pain she felt, while she watched how Mr. Defect Mogeko died. There was peace too, strange and unreal, but suited her that way. She wanted to stay at that safety bubble she created for herself.
"Oh, brother…"
She holed her head down. Wiped her eyes and forced herself to a little fake smile. She wasn't sure did it work, but needed to try. Just like that. Like nothing happened. Yonaka felt something was wrong, but ignored that feeling. Maybe fooled herself was wrong, but on the other hand… What left for her? Her parents were dead, brother gone long ago. Even Defect Mogeko. She was all alone. Deep down in her mind was only sorrow. It waited for her, ready to attack without warning. Yonaka saw only one way for herself: keep running. She was a coward anyway.
Maybe she only pretended, but… Who was she after everything was happened? Was herself? She didn't felt herself. No anymore. Part of her was gone and now…
What now?
She closed her eyes. Suddenly felt peace, even if she didn't expect something that real. But that was okay.
And was one place, where she could come back. They wanted her anyway, and here nothing waited for her in the first place. So if so…
Everything faded black.
Yonaka's mind finally gave up and broke apart.
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